naturalocmine

it's nice for opening this blog again. there are so many spider webs if you ask me how I look at this blog of mine. yep, i don't know how long i've been neglected it but yeah i'm here . so what's story i wanna share it ? :D

today's agenda in my english class was so different from the other usual days before. naturally, when my english teacher talked about i don't know what she was exactly saying, i would spend my time doing something like homework i haven't completed or even busying myself with doing other lessons that for sure are not related with english.

but todaaay, we were watching movie :D .. at first, i was not too interested with the film. it took a place in 1990's and i'm not exactly a fan of those kind of movie. but later , i found myself becoming mesmerized with the movie ! oh , the theme was FLIPPED . it kinda remind me with novels i used to read back two years ago. the girl in the movie was very similar with each other. two thumbs up :)


this is the movie picture when it was released i think

I'm now trying to get it. at this narrower time, let's find the true purpose, will I ?

doing something different than usual makes me even love for crossing a line. Not somehow i intend to become such a rebel by offering myself to do something unacceptable. No chance i'll do that. Well, when you have yourself in the middle of routines with always slightly interesting and more boring activities and you have to do that, who's person with stupid enough brain to do that?

Some people love to be tied by same thing. Wake up in the morning, making themselves readw to go to school or whatever, then go home, and then go to sleep. This cycle will never get the end. Yet i do really hope that doesn't pull me into its group. That creepies me. Having monotonous life is truly the last thing i wish to have. I don't want my life tastes in one way. True it can be bitter , however it changes into sweet then sour, turning back to bitter then sweet and so on. People called it as nano nano taste, didn't they?

That's why i looked so eager when dad asked me if i wouldn't mind to visit bandung by myself. Since i started to get dizzy when it came to school stuff, that offer was like gift sent from heaven. And now here am i , in bdg with maximum lust for exploring its malls.

a story will always be kept inside people's heart once it successfully chokes the readers into the deepest part of fantasy. When imagination takes a part , inside your mind there will be another world, and that's all yours. It's your right to demolish your dream of world and that's all up to your decision whether to build another fantasy.

A story starts in various situations. It can be in the middle, in the end and rewind the plot .

i'm not gonna pitying myself . I'm not gonna tearing myself.i'm not gonna killing myself and i'm not gonna broken just because a childish little devil like you, miss .

I'd love to if i must pull out your tongue, but i won't
it would be honoured , when i kick your butt and see you vanished at the end of the world, but i can't . Not because i'm too kindhearted , don't want to see others feeling sorry .

So NEVER MIND . I'm okay, alright ?

imagination makes my brain works harder. Always, in a sec , in a minute, in an hour, my life is filled by own imagination. It doesn't look like a 'how does it feel if i were. . ' but my imagination is prefer to be pretended like scrambled egg , full of stories i created and they mix all together.. My stories are also like tangled yarn. You'll never find where the story start or when it ends. I keep it as short story without prolog or even epilog.

To make one story in my mind doesn't acquire too many things to do. Reflect the reality into a scene of your fantasy. I'm as the director, i'm as scripwriter, i'm the main character, and i'm the only who have the control how the story should be. I really don't know when exactly started this imaginative mind i only believe that this is the way how to control myself from insanity. I do enjoy being geek. Keeping my imagination alive.

there are some things trouble me instead of letting me take a rest for a while. i know it was just me that pretend to be complex in this kind of holly things. i'm an immature person. when troubles face me and i don't have anything to defense , I would die. it's not like it's really near to the death by just trying to solve my problem. but sometimes , it works. feeling like dying and suffered and making a decision to surrender. i did it and after that the pain of giving up came. that was all i got after i let my desire to give in fill my mind.

but how the ways i can choose rather than face it and struggle ? i know it.

so, take it easy, girl . don't cry. don't make it be burden and bothering your way.

things won't be completed arousing our passion once they don't get any soul in the way they've been taken. Thank you to Earth for giving me such a beautiful skies to be memorized ....











Every sight of the earth is the painting for me. Everything could be drawn in every way we want.
do you know what is the biggest canvas around the world ? i called it "the sky". See? there's no border between one to the other side. And the paint ? it has clouds for white, rainbow for all colours.

i love natural ways. and that's why i always admire all of flowers in this world. people usually confess their feelling with a very long long sentence until they know they've told it. but flowers make it simple. they can cut off all those long sentence into one word that has full of meanings. I love the philosophy of it. it's like every words that just keep in our throats can be replaced so easily by using the meaning of flowers.

i found out a website that shows every kinds of roses complete with its meaning. here it is the link : http://www.rosaflora-flowers.com/meaning-of-roses.html . there are so adorable kinds of roses that really amazed me . here they are :

1. Red Roses




















Red roses convey a simple message: "I love you". This makes them the ultimate symbol of romantic love and the most popular choice on Valentine’s Day. Other meanings for red roses include desire, passion, courage, respect, beauty and sincerity. A red rosebud symbolizes purity and loveliness.


2. Coral Roses













Coral roses speak of desire and passion.


3. Lilac or Lavender Roses

I usually have fun with my spare time in my own lil' sweet room. being friend with my simple laptie and the window which is shown the world outside. i always make my own fairy land in this own place. everything is made here. my notes, my tears, my joyfullness, my fake friend and whatever. i'm the one who build the rules. and i'm the only one who deserve to break those rules. in this narrow but full of sweet tasted fairy land, my wide and long story life begin.

my first life starts with a group of books. i love words. . without those , i'm nothing . from those i learn how to talk, from those i also fill myself with meaning. these things have poisoned me successfully for becoming a dreamer.

.



my window is like flat screen. i can watch everything outside. just like watching tv but there's no channel so i can't choose what i want to see. it controll itself, not me. i'm just a spectator , waiting for the next show which i never can expect before. but tell you the truth . the most beautiful part that my "flat screen" usually shows is the view of rain in the afternoon. that is my favorite show, no other things can take it out from my heart.

.

there is one step for every person in this. The step when they know something uncommon in their lives. The step where they learn to be the real man. And the step which they use to appriciate what love is for. Love is affection. Love is a warm color of life. When a father give a tight hug for his children , that is what people usually called. When a lil' boy looks after his puppy dog , his adorable attraction is what we also call as love. And when a couple confess their feeling each other there's nothing but they will just say i love you to each other.

In every single place in world is filled by a huge cup of love. Although each place has its own way to say it. But it has same meaning. The truth meaning of sweet affection.

Child is the one who has the sweetest love. They can convey their love easily and loudly. They are like strong witches but with sweet magic wand. They don't have any yellow streak. Saying such love and adorable magic spell. They are the only ones who have the purest love than the others. It makes us envious, isn't it? When the age is getting older and older and we started to change point of view. The cute side has lost, and i've missed it so much.

• i have dreams. and i keep it so long since i was kid. everybody has own dreams to make it come true and so do I. I have a list of dreams that have been knock in my head's wall. but i recognized from long time ago that all of my dream will not be come true entirely. i know my dreams have been divided into two parts at least. the first is what I called the granted ones and the second is the ungranted ones at first. but since the life goes, i don't like the idea to call the second as ungranted things. i rather chose the postponed ones than the one i said first. I believe that it won't be imposibble if someday i can make it true. well i don't know what it's like but that like a surprise box that you'll never know what is inside. the thing that i should do is by letting it flow and emerge myself in the river named "life".

• yes i'm a dreamer. dreamer is not like a dork or whatever. and i'm not the only one in this world as a dreamer.
  

is there anyone know me better than myself ?

My love is like RED, red rose
That's newly sprung in JUNE
My love is like a MELODY
That's sweetly played in TUNE

As fair ART thou, my boonie lass
So DEEP in love am I
And I will love these still, my DEAR
Till a'the SEAS going dry

Till a'thee seas gang dry, my DEAR
And the rocks melt wi' the SUN
And I will LOVE thee still, my dear
While the sands o'life shall run

And FARE the wheel , my only love,
And fare the a while !
And I will come again, my LOVE
Thou' it were ten thousand miles

by : Robert Burns